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slhightower · 01-19-2004, 11:13 AM

I hope everyone is feeling better today... as for myself... I'm not doing so well.

A week ago we found out about a birthmother that is due in a few weeks. Everything seemed green and go that she would choose us... but in a weeks time she has made no decision. And while I have tried to kind of stay detached from the situation, it is really starting to ge to me. I mean, I thought it was so wonderful that here we were waiting on this agency to get back with us with some info... and thru a totally different channel this situation came up (and it would be better than if we went with an agency), and we would get a newborn... I mean that would just be awesome.

Well, needless to say, the lack of communication has left me feeling like this isn't going to happen... I mean, we've been ttc for 3 years... 3 years of disappointment... 3 years of hope down the tube... and waiting on this is almost giving me the feeling like we at a point now where we 'begging' for a baby! I know I am just being overly emotional, and there is alot more involved... but man, I just really wish I could have stayed home curled up in the covers and not talked to anyone.