PCOS Message Board - View Single Post - Did you do anything to make peace with your m/c?

KattforLife · 05-18-2004, 07:20 PM

Thanks, ladies,

Kwan,

I couldnt even believe what I heard last night. My husband and I were on the phone and he told me that he "knows" Im still pregnant. It broke my heart. I want to tell him there is no way, and he wont listen. As for this morning, the tissue Im dropping is getting a little more reddish/graying. So I know Im expelling what ever is left in there. I think that he is being the way he is because he really feels like there is still a chance. I mean, I dont blame him, because in my head still, I feel like there is still a chance.

Im so glad that you shared with me, because I do want to do something to remember my baby. I think that it would be the best for me. I have a schedualed ultrasound to confirm that there isnt anything left in there, and I will be asking for a picture as a last peice of the box. I decided that I was going to get another box and keep that box for my next child. I want to get something that is solid and more permanent, this box is just a photo box and made from cardboard. I know I Want it, I thought about it all night.

All of you who have gone through this and go through this are so strong. Before now I didnt even have an idea of what all of you go through. when I was thinking about the days before the miscarriage I realize that I knew something was wrong. my heart and my head told me that it wasnt going to last. I also started eating extra right, sleeping more, even when I wasnt tired and not bending in any way. I feel better that I did that, but I still feel like there was something that I could have done. Or if my ob saw me, someone...just someone could have stopped this. I hope those feelings leave me soon, cause they are so destructive.

I dont know... my dh agreed to take me to Ross(Its a clothing store that sells nice house stuff) to buy a special box for my angel. I have been saving everything from the begining of this pregnancy.

The weirdest thing is that my husband told me he distinctly remembered me telling him(I was sleeping) that I was going to miscarry soon. He said I Was talking in my sleep and I was holding my stomach. I dont remember. It brought chills down my spine.

Thanks for listening and offering this place, cause I really dont know what to do or where to go.