so-tired

I wish I could say I was suprised. But I am not.

I am amazed how mellow I feel now. My DH says I am in shock. I am not even hurting that much.

Last night I woke up with intense cramping pain. I had brown blood so I wasn't too worried at first. I have been spotting off and on the whole time. Then Red blood. I went to the emergency room and they did an U/S. There was no heartbeat. I was already 1 cm dialated. They gave me some pain meds, told me to call my obgyn, and patted me on the butt (not literally). I am about as sore as "normal" period cramps.

I feel more indifferent than I think I should.

Has anyone else felt this way? Am I a horrible person for not flipping out and grieving??

I am glad to get all of this off my chest.

Thanks for listening to me.

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