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I am so sorry for your loss. We all know how much it hurts, but we also know it affects everyone a little differently. I have to agree with the other ladies, don't give up on God. I have had trouble praying since my m/c as well. I seem to be able to pray for strength to get me through the grief (which God has graciously given), but I can't seem to pray beyond that for another pregnancy, dr. appts, procedures, etc.

I'm just God knows what is in my heart. And even if you can't pray the words, God knows what is in your heart too. It's okay to be angry with God. He understands. I wanted to share two brief passages from a book I've really found helpful, Free to Grieve by Maureen Rank. In regards to anger she writes, "Of all the grieving responses, I believe that anger is the most difficult to accept, particularly for those of us who are Christians and particularly when we are angry with God." She goes to write later in the same passage, "Psychologisty Paul Tornier observes, ' "Open the Bible: Moses, Job, the authors of psalms, the prophets-there is plenty of righteous anger there. Jesus Himself overturning the tables of the money-changers in the Temple............Holy Writ is full of conflicts, conflicts between men, and between God and men, and when true harmony-the harmony of faith-supervenes, it is only after an explosion of anger. In the personal history of many believers holy rebellion has been the first step towards a trusting encounter with God." '

So it's okay to be angry, but try to keep praying. If nothing else pray for the strength to get through the day and wisdom for what lies ahead.

Karla

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