Thanks raidergrl.
Unfortunately, he hasn't talked to me since Wed. night. I took some PMs and went to sleep early last night, but I wrote him an email, again apologizing for what I had done, and trying to explain to him that my meds are totally off. He didn't write me back last night or this morning. Tonight he'll probably work a 12 hour shift, and not write me... This weekend he'll spend with his family, and I doubt he'll write me. I don't know if we're finished or not, but I pray not. I love him so much, and I know he loves me (he's told me he does) and I hope I have not screwed us up for good. I hope he just needs some time to heal, and understand that this isn't all "in my head".
Sorry, I better stop for now, as I'm still on edge. I can't wait for Tuesday... This won't be a good weekend. Thanks again. |