Sarah,
What a beautiful dream!!! I pray that you are filled with peace as you wait for that beautiful, smart, blessed child whether she is from your womb or that special child that needs a friend, big sister, aunt, mentor, etc right now. She or he just may be waiting for you. I pray that you find the courage to forgive yourself for whatever it is that is pressing you down. Big Hugs to You. How grand that God introduced you to your DH ** like an early birthday gift, a lifetime gift.
Peaceful Journeys,
Linda S.