amigone

I just signed up on this message board. I was diagnosed with pcos a while ago, (I'm 20) and my gyno wants me to lose weight before he gives me any medication. I do get provera. The thing is, I'm having trouble with all this. I'm afraid to look like a total fool so I don't sign up at the gym. I haven't been on a scale for at least 5 years and I avoid every form of physical contact. I live with my parents and even such a simple thing as saying I'm going for a jog is impossible for me to say out loud. My mum is terrible in that regard, she'll make a big deal out of and tell my father and I'll feel all belittled. My dream is that somehow I can get past this and start losing weight. I've always been overweight, but it's gotten worse in the last few years. I didn't quite know where to post about my mental issues (maybe it's just angst), and this is something I dream of, although it's not (yet) a dream of having children or anything like that.

Thanks,
mar