Hiya
I'm a 27 year old from Canada. Feeling a little better now I've found this site. For a while I've been feeling very alone with my problem, especially now my husband of three years and I have been ttc. I have never heard about PCOS before this year. It makes me wonder why. I was at the gym and there was an article in a women's magazine about it. It made my hair stand on end. I thought: This is me - why hasn't anyone EXPLAINED this to me before. I had to ask my doctor about this, instead of it being found.
I have never had a normal period. From 12-17 years old I bled only about twice a year, but didn't think much of it because I suffered from an eating disorder at the time, which left me very thin. Just before I went away to university I decided to go to the gyno to see about bc to regulate my period, clear up my acne, and perhaps aleveiate the severe cramps I was having. He checked me out and told me he wasn't about to give me bc and that I should take some sort of fertility pill instead (can't remember what they were). He never explained WHY. I felt that he had really talked down to me. It was so bad that he made me count on my fingers so I wouldn't forget how many to take: "one pill a day for five days". I expressed my concerns about taking fertility drugs (I'm mean, I was 17 and not looking to get pregnant) and he just replied coldly: "If you don't take these and go on bc you'll never be able to get pregnant later in your life."
From 18-26 I was on bc. Yep. That long. During that time I had normal, on-time periods. There was one instance where I had this dibilitating pain that made me feel like I had been split in two. I started sweating and blacked out. Since it was the weekend, and I couldn't get to my regular doctor, I went to a clinic where the doctor said I was making my pain up and probably having an anxiety attack. He gave me a sleeping pill and told me to go away. When I went to my regular doctor, she said that it may have been an ovarian cyst that burst. She sent me for an ultrasound, but by then it was too late to tell what had happened.
About seven months ago I went off of bc. Since then my periods have gone back to being irregular and painful. I've gained quite a bit of weight too. My doctor gave me a referral for a pelvic ultrasound, but I had to move out of province, so I have had yet to have one. My new doctor has given me blood tests and I have pap lined up and an ultrasound in June (yes, that is the best free heallth care gets you in Canada).
So right now I'm just waiting...waiting...waiting. The words of my gyno have come back to haunt me. I'm feeling very little now...helpless. Even though it has not been very long for us ttc, I've been very touchy about the subject. My friends don't know about what's going on with me, and, frankly, for some reason I'm a little embarrassed to talk to them about it. Especially when the one's with kids say, "why aren't you pregnant yet?" or "I can't believe it! I got pregnant on my first try". I feel a bit like a failure.
Anyway, that's my sob story. I'm not always THIS depressing. Hope to hear from you and your experiences.
Later
