vlal, *hugs* i am sorry for what you are going through with your doctors. as a healthcare professional, it saddens and angers me to no end the attitudes from some of these so-called... well, it's too early in the morning for me to get worked up into a rant.
i do agree with the general consensus that you have to be your own health advocate; physicans and their treatments are designed to help us out (ideally) but in the end, we are responsible for directing our treatment. and i know what you meant by "waiting to help"; healthcare professionals are *supposed* to care and are *supposed* to go that extra mile to help the people that place their very lives in their hands. but for a variety of reasons, many often do not.
i totally understand your feeling worn down and tired of having to fight for every bloody intervention... i've run into a bit of it here myself in the u.s and it's so frustrating. some people look at us like it is all in our heads; and even though it
isn't just having to justify it to everyone can be a huge mental drain.
good luck and keep us updated!