I want to understand, I want to know all that is going on with her PCOS and everything else. It is just hard sometimes when all she seems to do is push me away. I want to believe it's just the PCOS pushing but can you ever really know. I miss being able to hold her. Now I am a typical man, yes holding leed to kissing and kissing leeds to touching and so on. I would really settle to be able to just hold her and try to make everything O.K. for just that time but the more I try the harder she pushes. I know I should just back off but it gets hard. I do not like seeing anyone unhappy especially my wife and I can't just do nothing.
I have always been a simple person and not wanting much out of life. All that changed when I met my wife. The first day we met at a mutual friends party I spoke the words "If you keep gettiing me beers I will have to mary you". Well I took her home to my appartment (bachlor pad) that night and she hasen't left yet. We have moved twice since had my best friend (son now 8 years old). I know how lucky I am to have her I definetly (married up). Oops, back to my point. There was a time when everything was able to be fixed with a hug and a kiss. I know this is not like that but shouldn't a hug and a kiss at least make things better for a short time? I guess what I am saying is that it hurts to be pushed away and I am looking for any help to find a window to climb through. Thank you for reading and putting up with my tangents but I think it might help you if you know a little more.
Big Joe |