CystaK

Nikki- the guy I lost my virginity to was 6 yrs older and a different race
I drank a lot in HS on the weekends with friends
and then went to church on Sunday feeling guilty for my lifestyle
I was molested by a distant relative from age 6 up and felt guitly about that as well
always felt like when I got older I could have stopped it, but you never understand about that unless you have lived it-you dont like it but it is all you know
My mom had custody of me and when I was 9 she had an awful wreck-she was not killed in it, but she had a massive head injury, which caused a stroke and left her disabled for 20 years, until she died of pneumonia
My aunt raised me and was a control freak/perfectionist-I know she loved me, but she rarely said it or gave hugs

It was not until my DH came along that I realized what unconditional love is all about-If ever there were a human example of God's love for us-He is it! Mind you, he could be more romantic, but he always forgives, and he tries his very best to understand, even when I dont understand myself!

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