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utgrrl82 · 10-03-2007, 05:30 AM

Hi gals. Its nice to find people who wont judge me. For the gals that dont know me I have Endo. Possibe PCOS. I have been told yes and no so looking for another doc out here who can give me straight answers. Anyhow, I have been trying to conceive since 2001. Late 2001 I had a miscarrage and since then I have not been able to get pregnant. I had a friend who was my sperm donor until about a year ago. I am a bi woman. Right now I am with a man and we are not trying to get pregnant but we are not preventing. I am testing in a few days is AF does come to be on the safe side as my ovulation is the opposite of what it normally is. I'm sure I am not pregnant.

In the past when I was trying to get pregnant I planned on doing everything on my own. I work at a job where I make enough money to where I can support a child on my own.

So I have a question for you gals. This comes in my mind so much and I know how it sounds. I want a child so bad. Everyone always tells me that it will happen and to not push it. I love the guy I'm with but his chances of having kids are small and I dont think it wil happen. Plus he is not ready for marriage or anything serious. We have talked about the future a little and both agree that we are not yet ready to be serious but he has said he would love have a baby and then sometime he says no but I really want to have a child. Granted since it didnt happen in the past I know it would take work but here is the thing. Me and him are not serious at the moment. I have thought so many times about getting another sperm donor and trying to get pregnant again but of course that would be the end of me and him. I wouldnt get pregnant and lie to him and say its his as some people have mentioned to me because that would kill him as would me if someone did that to me. And thats just downright wrong. So I am torn. He would be an awesome dad and take care of me and a child 100% but he doesnt want to actually "try", rather if it happens by mistake he would be happy. I dont really get that but that is how it seems to be. Aahh!! Its driving me nuts and I cannot get it out of my head. Can anyone help in any way with advice or anything?? Its really weighing on me.