lighthouse

hey y'all

I have a question and would welcome views. not sure if anyone can relate.

I've been with my g/f a year and a half but I don't talk to her about my pcos. or my facial hair. I find it so embarrassing i can't bear to and i still try to kid myself that people can't see it.

a couple of times she commented on my moustache and I clammed up. didn't want to talk about it. and made it unequivocally clear that i felt generally humiliated. (and upset)

anyway, yesterday for no reason whatsoever, we'd left a couple of people we'd met and she started saying that i should be rude about people more - kind of half serious..

and then said 'everyone else is rude about people. they are probably talking about your moustache right now.' I felt so gutted. and stunned. we were in the train station and when she said it, it just hit me in the stomach and made me feel so crap. and deflated.

I didn't respond but she noticed that i withdrew and went stunned and quiet.

and now i feel soooo resentful of her. was this a bloody mean thing to say or am i over reacting ? I feel like i shouldn't bother being with her. really. i just think it was so cruel. but welcome your views please. am I being totally over the top and should i let it go?