 The Peaceful Warrior has finally found peace
Its been a long time since I've posted here but I just wanted to let people know whats happening with my BDW (beautiful, darling wife) and I.
I came to the realization a few months back that I had allowed myself to become caught up in the whole notion of performance and what was happening and not happening in our bedroom. That got me to realize that our problems were just as much the fault of my behaviour as it was PCOS. So I started to leave my expectations at the door and started to accept the fact that there is not one darn thing that I can do to change what PCOS is doing to her and how it has changed her.
By not fretting over what is or isn't happening, I've come to experience a lot less anxiety and this has cut the tension in our bedroom. I've also made an evffort to once again become the man she fell in love with. I feel better about it and I've come to cherrish our life together and the little moments that we have.
The results...she less cranky....she seems to be happier.....and she has admitted to wanting a little more play time. While the frequency was never an issue, I believe that her increased desire will translate to her being a little more active. If it does, then that's great for both of us. If it doesn't, it really doesn't change how I feel. I'm greatful for having the time together we do and if its less than what we've come to expect as a society as being the ideal, well who cares because each time we make love now we reconnect emotionally and that is something that hasn't happened in a long time. For me that's really all that matters. |