So this is not so much a rant as it is a thank you. I wanted to take some time and thank each and everyone of you soul cysters. It was a blessing to find this site, to find all of you. I know for myself I have struggled with the fact of talking to
ANYONE about my PCOS side effects and whatnot. Although here I feel like I can take a step out of the dark, pull off the mask that covers my soul and live again. You guys have helped me to open up and to feel that it is okay to talk about things like facial hair and going bald. You have helped me to realize that it's okay to feel ugly but it doesn't mean that it's true. I feel as if I dont have to hide who I am when I log in, I feel the arms of comfort grab me and hold me tight.. whisphering in my ear that everything is going to be alright, because here, on this site are some of the most wonderful and beautiful women in the world. Some of you have helped me so much more than you will ever know.. and I thank you from the bottom, middle, and top of my heart. Last night I was able to talk to my bf about my facial hair, my not finding myself beautiful and so forth. It was very hard for me to let him into that part of me, to come out from hiding
, to let him know my secret. Thanks to some of you for the tips on how to tell him...I let him read what I posted for my first post (which was a rant). Although I felt ashamed when I walked away from the computer to let him sit down I knew that I had the support of my cysters and it eased my mind a bit. I went and curled up in our bed while he sat here and read.
A million things were running through my mind and as I lay there crying and feeling vulnerable to the max, open for the whole world to see. When he was done reading he came in the room and put his arms around me and told me that it's okay, your the most beautiful woman I have ever seen and then he held me tighter telling me to cry and let it out. In all that time we laid there I felt how much he truely loves me and how much more respect he has for me for letting him in.. and how much weight it feels has been lifted from my shoulders. I know I not only have myself to thank for opening up.. I have all of you!! If it wasn't for my soul cysters I dont think I would have had the will power to open up to him. So again I thank you all and hope and pray for the best for each and everyone of you. I know we can make it through what seems like a dark black cloud hovering over our heads, we deserve just as much as the "normal" female to walk in the sunlight... and our day will come. This truely feels like home and you all will be my
SISTERS for life, for now you have a place in my heart
. Thank you so much!!!
Love always and forever!
Kristen
