graceking

just a heads up, this is kinda dark and twisty, but i'm quite pleased with it so i'm posting it anyways. if you're not up for dark and twisty, then i suggest you skip this one.


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what do you do
when you come to a place,
a fork in the road,
a turning point,
and a choice must be made?
unsure,
afraid,
alone -
there is no turning back,
no second chance,
nothing
nothing but acceptance
bitterness
and
regret.
what do you do?
can you look yourself in the mirror?
can you meet your own eyes?
are there any answers?
are your answers lies?
sometimes there is no truth,
sometimes there's no right,
no wrong....
if there's no up,
no down,
then how the hell
do you find the ground?
so walk along in your cloud,
your dark, uncaring shroud
and leave behind
everything you know,
everything you are,
everyone
you
love?
is there sanity in solitude?
is there peace in quiet?
can you live this way?
can you be?
i don't know you,
not anymore;
you've chosen your path,
but can i follow?
even if i can,
will i?
do i want to?
do you?
life is love,
and love is life,
but where does that leave you?
where am i?
who am i?
when all is said
and all is done,
i'm left to ask myself,
what have i become?
i do not like questions
they torture me so
i've begged,
i've pleaded,
and yet i'm still left here,
alone,
unknowing,
questioning....
damn these thoughts,
damn your words,
damn my mind,
i have no soul.
is there heaven?
i know there's hell
i live there
with you.
who am i?
i cannot breathe.
i cannot breathe.
i'm drowning
in a world full
of empty,
meaningless,
pointless
air.
truth runs red
truth runs deep
truth runs warm
and soft
in me
i know i gave you
my word,
a heartfelt,
if regretful,
promise,
swore to you
that i wouldn't do
the things you fear.
i don't want to make you cry.
so far my word
stands....
my mind
has
fallen
my will
may
follow
but i don't mind,
not really
i'm too tired
to care
anymore
and
i cannot breathe
you know what?
there are no answers
in this thing
called life
only
hope
and will
and a damn intense
determination
to fight,
to light
all this darkness....
i

cannot



breathe

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"I want you to be with me in the dark. To hold me. To keep loving me. To help me when I get scared. To come right to the edge and see what's there." -Before I Die by Jenny Downham