Alwayz_yourz

I need some advice. I have been looking at different websites about anxiety and Social Anxiety Disorder. I am trying to find something that will allow me to explain to my boss what I go through and how I feel.

I graduated from college in August and started my first 'real' job in September. I am the Staff/Cost Accountant for a manufacturing company in MN. There are two other people, besides my boss, in my department: an assistant and a cash/asset manager. Lately, my boss has been pressuring me to answer the main phones. Our company has a receptionist that is perfectly able to answer them, and 4 other back ups if she can't. Our phone system is weird...you can't just send a call to another person's phone, you have to go over the intercom and page them.

Every time I hear the phone ring, I get this feeling inside me. It's like a huge ball, and I want to run, but I'm paralized. I worry about answering it wrong, or about having to go over the intercom, or not knowing what to tell them... I know that there is no reason for me to feel like this, but I can't help it.

I had a meeting with my boss about it on Monday about it. He keept pushing me about it, saying that he can't understand why I can't just answer the phones because I do such a great job with everything they throw at me. And that I shouldn't make such a big deal about it. He kept pushing and pushing...so much that I started to cry...right in his office. And he acted like it was nothing! He still kept on and on about it!

Yesterday, I overheard some co-workers talking about me. They were saying that I probably started to cry to try to get out of it... How did they find out what happened in our meeting unless my boss told one of them. And the bad thing about the whole situation is that I can't go to HR because he is the HR manager!!!!

My parents said that I should tell him that it IS a big deal TO ME and I would like him to stop harassing me. How do I go about doing this?? Should I give him a website to look at that explains anxiety?? Do I look for another job?? Should I talk to someone else within my company about it?? I need help...