It might be time to consider the fact that this guy probably has some form of narcissism. He could be bipolar, or borderline, or what have you. There are a lot of people with mental problems, who have trouble with life just like what you are saying he does. Sometimes they can hide it for years...but eventually, it shows.
I had a boyfriend who seemed fine to me, but others clearly saw that he had a problem, but they were too embarrassed to tell me. It took me 11 months to figure out that this guy was crazy. But it wasn't until I was far removed from it that I seen how truly messed up he was. I'm actually embarassed that I dated someone that was that messed up. I feel ashamed, as though that makes me crazy by default. But it doesn't. And I loved him. It was real, and it was my life, and I can't regret anything. I enjoyed that crazy, drama-filled, so passionate that we fight constantly kind of love while I had it. But you can't live with someone like that forever. Unless you are trying to drive yourself insane, which it sounds like that's what you are doing.
You don't think your heart problems have anything to do with your crazy relationship? Let me just say...that kind of fighting is NOT normal. Give up. Let your heart break. Because if you don't, you are headed for insanity. And don't jump into another relationship yet. Let yourself breathe for awhile. You will get over this, and you will learn from it.
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