oh my goodness! thank you so much! since i got diagnosed with PCOS and put on medication i have struggled with problems i have never had before. my doctor tells me im at a "normal" weight but since they suggested i loose some weight i have become obsessed. i weigh myself 4 to five times a day, run at least 5 miles a day, lift weights every day, often vomit food that i feel like i shouldnt have eaten even though it might fit with my diet. i cant stand to eat food, i fear eating out with friends and family because i think ill gain weight, i have become irritable and angry, and i cry more than i have in my entire life. little things might make me cry that never would have in the past. the hair on my face, chest, and stomach makes me even more self conscious. im 17 and a senior in high school where good looks are a must and an amazing body is expected. i feel like everyone can see the hair i try to hide and secretly talk about how "fat and disgusting" i am behind my back, although many girls will just say harsh things to my face. this SHOULD be a time where i look back and think of how much i enjoyed highschool. i think i could have done this up until this year. i feel like PCOS has ruined my life. i hate feeling this way and i would love all of these symptoms and feelings to stop. i can totally relate to the prayers of DeePsGrrl and wish i could just get a big hug from all of the soulcysters who know where im coming from. |