Originally Posted by springview

Thanks everybody for the support.
I just started crying and couldnt stop....for hours, days. It is so strange.
I went to a doctor, he gave me some medication to help cope. And I am seeing a therapist. Nothing is really helping so far. I still feel very depressed.... I just wish I had noticed this coming on before it got this bad.

I feel so down on myself - like a complete failure. And I was doing so good, I was going to the gym 4 days a week, losing weight, feeling better about myself and then BANG...I broke down. I tore every single picture of friends and family with babies down, and could not bare to hear ONE more question about "why dont we have kids yets" I think part of it was that my neighbour asked me the other day... "arent you planning on having kids, you are going to one day arent you?" I just stared at her, and blurted out.... "I have infertility issues" I think that was the start of the slippery slope to the bottom. You know how we say if I get asked that question one more time, I dont know what i'll do.... well it turns out I was asked that question one more time and I lost it...