Today seems like to be it will be another crappy day. I've lost a lot of weight recently and have been living on cloud 9 (given that I ignore my hairiness) Summer is around the corner and I just don't want it to come. I feel horrible thinking about how it is the best time of the year for the rest of world and it's the worst for me.
It just seems like everything is falling apart for me...
I normally don't care too much about how I look, but now that I work I have to keep up appearances. ugh....
I really like this guy ( i know he likes me too) and PCOS makes me feel like no matter what things can never work out between us. I think about him 24/7. I'm completely losing my mind... I know he likes me just as much but little does he know about my PCOS and I don't know how it would impact him...
Let alone everything else that has happened that could impact a relationship if we ever have one.
I just feel so miserable. I feel like I have no control over my life whatsoever. No matter what I do to make things right, they always manage to fall apart. I don't what I ever did to deserve a life like the one I'm living. I just wish I could be normal like other girls.
I remember when I was I in high school I would wake up every morning thinking I was living a nightmare. (I spent 4 years of my life like that, I didn't know I had PCOS and I was constantly teased and made fun of at school). I feel just like that today.
I have no clue what the future holds and it seems there's nothing I can do to make it better.
My life is pretty difficult as it is and then PCOS comes along to multiply my difficulties by infinity.