Hi I have gone through much of the same procedures that the other ladies have mentioned. I started off with an ultra sound because I was complaining of pain during my period and only during the week of my period. I had both the usual and the vaginal ultra sounds. It was during this that they seemed to have found a polyp and a couple of more "unidentified masses". After this they set me up for another procedure (can't really remember it's name right at the moment) and a biopsy of the polyp that they had identified. Anyway the results came back negative for cancer but the GYN wanted to get the polyp and the thick build up of lining out so a D&C was scheduled. This was the first time Endometrial Hyperplasia was ever even mentioned to me ever. Anyway after the D&C pathology report came back they identified it as complex atypical endometrial hyperplasia. Supposedly the worst type you can get of the hyperplasia but still NO cancer was found. After this my former GYN would only say I "needed" to have a hysterectomy for my own good. When I asked her why she didn't find any cancer did she I could never get her to give me an answer. She would only ask if I wanted a second opinion so I said yes sure why not, hoping maybe I could get more answers there. I did get a better explanation and did find out from the GYN/Oncologist that I was sent to that there was a medical treatment ( high doses of progesterone and D&C's every 3 months) but since I had already supposedly reached the end of having kids (Yes I have 2 wonderful boys 20 and 15 years old respectively.) then a hyster was the best and only option he would be willing to really discuss with me. Now this set me on edge I almost divorced my poor hubby over the D&C and wouldn't speak to him for over a week for making me have that done how in the world am I ever going to get my head wrapped around the fact that everyone seems to think I should be gutted like a fish (and yes that is the mental pic I have in my head of this procedure(ever see the pics?.....well I looked them up uuuggghhh!) gutted like a fish can't help but compare the two.) Ugh no never not coming at me with a knife. I mean he first off is treating this like cancer (which hasn't been found in me ever)Yes I know that according to the studies what I have is reported to maybe have a 25 to 30% cance of developing into cancer in my lifetime well you know what that leaves me with a 70% chance of never getting it in my lifetime. Also yes I know that women with my particular type of this disease are reported to have a 5 to 10% chance of having undiagnosed cancer right now. Well again that's 90 to 95% chance I DON"T so if you can't prove it then you are not going to gut me! They also want to make this the worse possible thing they want to make a vertical cut instead of minimizing the scar by making it horizontal and they want everything (Fallopian tubes, ovaries, uterus, and cervix and maybe even some lymph nodes!) again no...how am I even suppose to EVER feel like a woman again with my whole reproductive system gone? How am I even ever suppose to want to have sex again knowing that they have sewed up the top of my vagina and I am in surgical menapause and instead of sperm going where it should it's just wasted in some void ( my mental image here is the oil spills they use to show on the news only this would be in my body..gross.). Really what's the point of sex or even ever going back to a GYN I mean hello you took everything why should I waste my money?! Then you have the possible side effects if they aren't very careful I could end up being incontient I am only 40 just turned 40 I have no urge to be in depends for the rest of my life because the scaple slipped and the surgeon nicked or even cut something like my bladder or bowels. This is something they don't even like to address they keep saying I am now getting into the relm of "what if" well isn't that what they are doing too? I don't know I just know that if I can't get my head wrapped around it and have it done just to make everyone else Happy. I would only hate them for it. To be very honest with all of you I am NOT nice when in that kind of mood! I would never be able to stand being around them again and would have to leave so it's like I asked my mother and my husband which would you rather have, me here loving you and taking my chances on you losing me to a possibility and only a possibility of cancer or you losing me knowing I hate you and will never speak to you again and you will never know where I am or what's going on in my life. Because I can not let this happen to me. I just can't. I know all of that might not make sense to a lot of you but it does feel good to get it all out in the open but I doubt I'll change my mind about the hysterectomy. I can't just lose that much of me and my female identity on a possibility. I just could't stay sane after that. I have my tonsiles, my appendix and both of my sons were born vaginaly. Why would I let them have pieces of me now? |