Weemes ~ My heart is broken for you! I wish I could say something that makes everything better, but I can't. Your DH is amazing to do this for your and your future family! As wrong as this may sound, at least you may be able to carry a baby, if DH is OK with that. Also, my brother is adopted and we adore him the same as my sister, who isn't. Life is horrible at times, but I personally feel there is always a reason. Sometimes I ask myself what the reason this or that could be because I wanted something so bad that I didn't/couldn't get, and then I realize that my life wouldn't be the way it is if this/that had of happened. Am I babbling? Did that make sense? Trust that you will have a family, one way or another, and it will be perfect and exactly the way it is suppose to be.
After I had my miscarriage I was upset with my fiance that he didn't seem to be as upset as I was, and I questioned if he wanted it like I did. And he said to me he didn't want me to feel worse so he 'hid' his emotions from me. I think you need to allow yourself to grieve this with your DH. Talking about it together, might help both of you. Just a thought.
Good luck to you both!!!! |