 Trying to understand
I am not sure if this belongs here, but it must be related.
On 4/23/08 I found out I was 8-9 weeks pregnant. At the same time, I was informed that I would not be able to carry. I had an ectopic. The first few weeks were really hard on me with major mood swings and breakdowns about not carrying to term. I started to hold myself together and "handle" the situation the best I could. During the last week or so, I feel myself on edge again. I thought it was anxiety about my post-op yesterday and next steps.
Today we took my step son and his cousins out for the day for his 4th birthday. All day I just wanted to cry. I can tell my moods are starting to effect my relationship with DH. He is really wonderful, but his way of dealing with our loss is to forget I was pregnant. He doesn't understand that I could NEVER forget I was carrying our child.
The Dr wants me to take Yasmin for 4 months until things calm down inside. I am scared cause I know how bad my mood swings were before on BCPs. At this point, I am very emotional now so I can only imagine what will happen when on BCPs.
I dont understand why things have to be this way. I keep telling myself everything happens for a reason, but I am not sure what this reason is.
Thanks for listening.
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DH
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I (6/2/06)
DSS born 5/30/04
HSG 8/26/08 - right fimbria congested with hydrosalpinx
Ectopic PG 4/23/08 (8 wks)
Salpingectomy 4/23/08 (left)
Dx PCOS 1995
"Yesterday is history; tomorrow is a mystery; today is a gift. That is why its called the present."
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