Dude, it's ok man. I hear you loud and clear. Sounds like your doing all you can and still have a good attitude. I have to give Deb feedback and compliments but it brings smiles and sometimes rolling eye's because she does not believe me, but I'm doing my part and its making her relax and ease off the negative self talk. She says she feels bad about her need for reinforcment but I do what I can for her. It seems to be getting better with her medicine. Sometimes she gets testy and I think that means her self esteme is coming back because she is funny. At times though she goes dark and distrustful thinking Im going to leave her again and then we argue that Im not leaving her. Its that part that I cant fix. The past is the past but I just want to move forward. Im back and she cries sometimes but she says its just insecurity.
Man - what can we do but do our best? My gf seems to be ok with that. She sees me trying. |