Lisa: I did feel I was going to have another baby. I yearned for another child. I am not sure if you are religious at all, but I was told by my father, that maybe God had other plans for me. I actually started to believe it, and didn't know why I would want one so badly (it was an aching in my heart). So finally a friend told me that she had a friend who prayed to God to take away this yearning if she wasn't meant to have anymore. So I did just that, and my longing didn't go away, it in fact grew stronger.
The cycle I actually got pregnant, we almost quit the cycle. My DH was put in the hospital because of asthma and the start of COPD. He was even being tested to make sure he didn't have lung cancer. I almost stopped that cycle because he was in the hospital, we weren't sure if he would get better soon. (he was even on oxygen when he came home). But we decided that we wanted this child and what if this was the cycle I would have gotten pregnant. So we continued and we got our BFP.
We had also decided that if the fertility treatments didn't work we were going to adopt. Actually, I always wanted 5 kids myself. But with all of the medical problems with this pregnancy and the fact that I will have had 3 c/s once I have Maddie, the OBs would rather me not get pregnant again. If we have anymore after this baby, we will adopt.
But then again I am going to have my hands full with 3.
I do believe that if you have it in your heart, you should follow it. That is what I did. |