Hey! I see you are coming over to the states soon... I am about 7 hours from there, but my aunt used to live in pensacola. It is beautiful! WELCOME!!!
If I knew your name, I would use it here.... I understand what you mean about seeing what goes on behind the scenes. I have completely been there, and would be happy to talk to you about it any time. Remember that churches are full of people who screw up just the same as anyone else. EVERY person in this world is going to let you down at some time. GOD WON'T. I promise. Sometimes I feel like He has gone silent, but then realize it is more a "me" issue, than a "Him" issue. Despite my best attempts, I fail miserably at times. God gave us our son at a crazy time in our lives... I had to draw on the support of God to know we would make it through. Now we have been trying to have another baby for a long time, and find we are having to lean on God for that too. Let us help you... not that we can do much about your TTC process
But we can help you with leaning on God for support.