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Originally Posted by tehghettopirate  *hugs all around*
really bad day. couldn't sleep, my tummy is killing me. I was supposed to have a job interview today but I panicked and cancelled, said I was sick (which is sorta true). Called my therapist but I can't get in to see her till mid Sept. I don't even want to see her, but I don't really have another option.
i'm trying to see the good stuff. I may not have a lot that I want, but I do have Matt and he loves me despite all the stupid things i've done and still do. I may not have a ring on my finger, but he bought us a house. Even though i've not worked in a year he put my name next to his on everything and we signed the papers for the house together. He does everything for me. I wish I could be better for him. |
Matt seems to be a great guy and seems very similar to my DBF. Carrie we are almost in the exact same situation! I read this post and cried because I feel the same about my man and I too "wish I could be better for him". I am working on it though and he knows that one day I'll be better and we will be okay. I think your Matt knows that you are trying to be better and it's not something you can easily control.
Have you had treatment for your panic attacks and anxiety ? I get them sometimes and I have anxiety as well, I try breathing exercises which help some what.