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Originally Posted by tehghettopirate  I guess i'm having more bad days than good. He's home and all i've done is cry. The holiday should have been good but it threw everything off. I feel like i haven't even seen him since he got back. All I can do is sleep and cry. IT's so stupid. He's home, he's safe and all I want to do is bury my face in his arms and hide. Why is this happening? Why can't I just be happy and thankful for what I have?? |
Carrie first of all here's a big
for you. So sorry that you are having some bad days. I was having some myself last week and was pretty much where you are now. Crying, wanting to hide from the world in my BF's arms. What I did was just sit and think long and hard about what I have in my world and how lucky I am. I may not have much money but I'm rich in love, from my Mother and my BF and so are you. You have a great man in your life and that is definitely something to be happy and thankful for. I know that is easy to say when you are feeling so down. It's hard to "just be happy" when you are depressed, believe me I know.
I know from your signature that you don't have insurance but I really think you need to talk to someone. When I didn't have insurance and very little money, I went to my local hospital and they have a mental health department that gave me counseling even without insurance. They signed me up for some state assistance. So maybe you can try that.
I really hope you start feeling better soon sweetie. Here's another
for you.