Sarah89

Apologies if there are/were already threads on the same topic... ^^;;

I'm a 19 year old, currently deeply unsure about my sexual orientation. I have a boyfriend, and for most of my life until my late teens felt primarily attracted to guys. In the past few years I have suddenly felt increasingly strong lesbian desires to the point where I am now genuinely considering the possibility of being lesbian (I identify myself as bisexual). The manifestation of my PCOS symptoms and lesbian feelings more or less began at the same time. (Well, kind of... I had a girl crush when I was 14, before my PCOS became obvious).
I'm curious to know whether others think that I am inherently lesbian/bisexual, and it was always a latent thing even before my PCOS kicked in, or whether the PCOS has actually been the major contributing factor in making me doubt myself (I think I do suffer from quite high testosterone levels).
I also sometimes have a weird feeling of being neither male nor female, or combining the qualities of both. I've always been boyish, never liked wearing make-up or 'feminine' clothes, etc. Is this 'androgynous' feeling something that anyone else can relate to? : (

On a side note, the idea of being lesbian really isn't an issue or a concern for me; I'm not homophobic in the slightest. I'm just confused by it all...