@ novachick
I kind of relate to that. It's not as though I've stopped experiencing any attraction to men- just that I feel ambivalent sexually towards men. And as you said I'm not 'grossed out', but I can find sex a chore at times (I would think for someone my age, this is kind of weird). It wasn't always like this though, I used to have a raging libido. ^^;
For a while I was wondering if I was asexual since I seem to have stopped having any interest in sex at all. It seems like I get attractions to male friends, have relationships with them (or want to), but feel some doubts about whether it's really what I want, or a feeling that something's missing. I don't want to assume I am lesbian because I've never had any sexual experiences with another girl, and there's no point assuming I'd prefer it (I do strongly get the feeling I would, though...)
From what you've said, I would probably say you're a bisexual with a preference for women. I sort of suspect this of myself, but I can't say for sure that I'm not definitely in the one camp.
I guess I'm confused because I'm not the kind of gay/bi woman who just knows and always knew, for as long as they could remember. Maybe it takes some people a long time to confidently identify themselves, I dunno. It just seems like no one I talk to about it understands what I mean or hasn't had the same uncertainty themselves. :/ |