I think at 19, your sexual self is still developing. My honest opinion is that most lesbians knows what they are from the start. They may have dated men, but from early childhood on they feel the attraction toward females.
I think that you probably aren't a lesbian, just because you say you have always been attracted to men. This desire to explore another side of your sexuality has only developed in the past few years. Could it possibly be curiosity? I think it is very, very normal for women, especially at your age, to be curious about it and experiment.
I also wonder if your testosterone levels are elevated? There are theories that women with PCOS may have these feelings more because of our wacky testosterone. I think these are probably the women who didn't feel the attraction toward women until they were older and their testosterone increased, versus women who have always known they were lesbians.
I wish I could give you more advice. For a long time I wasn't sure whether to consider myself straight or bisexual, because of my tendencies to be attracted to women. In my late teens I did quite a bit of "experimenting" on both sides of it and enjoyed both. Finally I came to the conclusion that in my case there isn't a clear cut answer. I have however been in a happy relationship with my DH for 10 years, so generally regard myself as being straight. That's not to say that my personal fantasies don't involve women, because they often do.
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