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Originally Posted by Stacie M  I think at 19, your sexual self is still developing. My honest opinion is that most lesbians knows what they are from the start. They may have dated men, but from early childhood on they feel the attraction toward females.
I think that you probably aren't a lesbian, just because you say you have always been attracted to men. This desire to explore another side of your sexuality has only developed in the past few years. Could it possibly be curiosity? I think it is very, very normal for women, especially at your age, to be curious about it and experiment.
I also wonder if your testosterone levels are elevated? There are theories that women with PCOS may have these feelings more because of our wacky testosterone. I think these are probably the women who didn't feel the attraction toward women until they were older and their testosterone increased, versus women who have always known they were lesbians. |
From a very young age I've found socialising with boys comes far more easily to me, and I often feel awkward/out of place around other girls. While I wouldn't go as far as saying I knew I was lesbian or bisexual, I have always felt 'different' somehow- never confidently able to box myself into any category. My early attractions were all to boys but as I said in recent years I feel like I've lost sexual interest in men (not entirely, but it's rapidly dwindled). I always check out other women now. I have a LOT of platonic male friends and a lot of them treat me as if I'm another guy. As far as I know, this isn't something the majority of straight women would say about themselves.
I'm also really obsessive about anything that involves lesbian romance- books, films and the like, and I find myself moved more deeply by lesbian love stories than heterosexual. If it weren't for these things, I would definitely put it down to curiosity- but I get the feeling these are feelings that I'm just beginning to realise and want to explore.