HopelessHayley

Where do I start. My name is Hayley, I live in Perth, 29, Been TTC for 10 years, Diagnosed with the curse of PCOS when I was 16.
My main problem besides my PCOS and Depression is my weight, I have undergone weight loss surgery to get this weight off before anyone will treat me, although weight loss is at a standstill and wont budge.
I currently weigh 113kgs, and although falling pregnant last year on a course of Clomid, I miscarried at 7 weeks.

I realise that my situation may not be the most dire on this site, but I dont know what to do with myself anymore. I have dreams of having a baby, but it just leaves me so down. I have no one to talk to about this, I dont know where to go to get support, my partner is so wonderful, but I dont think he realises the pain that I am in. I wish that I could explain the agony that I am feeling right now, but there is a major lack of words to express how low I feel. I dont know what to do to escape this emotional pain, other than suicide.
My birthday was 3 weeks ago, and it was just another reminder of another year without being a mother, and the fact that I can go on hoping for a baby, but it will probably never ever happen for me. I have tried so many things to get my ovaries to work, but I just feel as though I have been put on this earth to be baron, and to pretend to be happy with the way that I am, when I am not. Could anyone please give me some advice.
What do I do, what is the answer? I wish someone would just give me all the answers. I dont want anyone to feel sorry for me, please. I just need help.
Oh, and please dont tell me that I am 29 and I still have time. I got over people telling me that when I was 24.
Thankyou for reading this.
Hayley