Hi Hayley
Sweetie, I am in a similar situation to you. I was diagnosed with PCOS at the tender age of 17 and am now 37. I was being treated at King Edward Hospital 11 years ago and thought I would never, ever, ever fall pregnant, but lo and behold, I did after a year or more of trying Clomid with no success. I was having a TTC rest and found I was pregnant.
I have also been trying without much success to lose weight. I was seeing Margo Norman at Fertility North last year and had several IUI cycles, but my body is actually very resistant to a lot of the fertility treatments because of my weight (127kgs). My very supportive hubby and I discussed it late last year and we have decided to no longer try for another child.
Have you sought any help from a councillor? The other question I have is, do you take any antidepressants? Depression unfortunately is a common problems with us PCOSers. Your GP is probably aware of the situation but waiting for you to speak up and ask for help. I need to go on antid's every now and then to help me cope with everything, and I assure you, there is absolutely no shame in taking them or asking for any help.
While I mentioned above that my DH is really supportive, I think it is a common issue that men just DON'T understand the feelings that we have. When I asked him what he wanted to do, his response was "it's up to you!!"
Please, please, please just hang around the boards, and scream for help if you need it!! I haven't been around for a while, but when I need a boost, a lot of the really gorgeous ladies here are really supportive. We all have been or are going through what you are, so please don't forget Soulcysters as a really valuable resource.
Can I ask who you are seeing for your fertility problems? Have you had any insulin resistance tests done? What meds are you taking? If you are "North of the river", I strongly recommend Margo Norman. She is very empathetic and understanding of PCOS as she herself has it and has given me some great tips to help manage my own condition. Unfortunately, I was really "naughty" and went off of the Metformin (used for helping control insulin resistance), and when I last saw her, she told me off and urged me to get back on it.
Anyways, I hope my rambling on gives you at least a little bit of hope, or at least a couple of questions that you can ask your doctor. Feel free to ask any questions, and I will do my best to help you if I can.
Love,
Gina
