I understand totally! I was always a "tomboy" as a child, I guess my main role model was my grandfather and he always smoked cigars, had a flask of bourbon and drove black cadillacs and wore suits. The older I get the more I realize that I am like him in alot of ways. I have not shopped in the womens section for more than a random item here or there in years. I consider myself androgynous, and I like to be with androgynous people sexually as well. It is my *big* turn on I guess. Now what I mean by my being androgynous, it means Ill wear a pair of loose mens trousers, pointed toe dress shoes, a pyramid belt a womens dress shirt with the girls on parade a loose mens tie and a blazer. To me its both a fashion and a feeling, I really connect how I feel on the inside with what I look like on the outside. I also keep kind of a modern twist on a mid length 80s rocker haircut so that to could swing in either gender.
I am attracted to feminine men and butchy women. My S.O. is perfect to me, first off she is gorgeous. But she dresses kind of masculine and has some traditional male protective traits as well, her hair is kind of inbetween a male and female cut to. I love it. I personally ID as bisexual...but the men Ive been with have been on the verge of being gay themselves or crossdressers...and alot more feminine than me. I still prefer my ladies tho...I could never spend my life with a man thats the simple blunt fact of it. There is just such a much greater connection for me with with women not even just sexually but emotionally as well. |