I am glad that people have such strong faith, and I realize you must be stronger than me. The more I go through with infertility, and all of the slaps in the face have pushed me away from God. I just can't understand why he would give me such a huge desire to have children and then not allow me to have them. We are so far in debt with medical bills that we can't afford to adopt. So it looks like we are out of options.
I am a teacher and I deal with pregnant 14/15 year olds every day. I see horrible people that don't deserve the air they breathe much less children with their kids every day in the town we live in. I don't know how to have faith at this point. After 5 years of TTC, and all of the adoption paths we have tried we still have not reached our goal of having a child.
This past month we had our first BFP ever, and it was ectopic. We caught the birthmom we had been working with for over 3 months trying to scam us. We realized that we won't have the money to try to go through an agency for a long time. I admire you for having faith, because it's something that I am not strong enough to have right now. |