I have asked myself this question a million times...
Even today, watching some trashy TV, I saw some lady (I use that term loosely) with four children, who lets her live-in boyfriend beat and molest them. Why does she get children, and decent people do not?? It is incomprehensible, and only the Good Lord knows the answer.
I am sorry you are hurting, but I can't help but think... might these feelings have arisen for a reason? I don't know what season of your life you're in, if you would ever TTC or adopt again... but maybe there's a baby out there that needs you?
Bless you, whatever you decide. I have no doubt that you will help those boys indeed grow into fine young men. |