messy_jessie

I wrote this once on the topic of drems.... and i guess it sums mine up - #


I dream of what I cannot change
The past, my faults, genetics.
Too short, too large,
bad choices, bad ideas.
Why hindsight was not foresight
and life’s path was not a smoother one.
However, the past is the past,
and hindsight need not be regret,
and dreaming changes, a waste of energy.

I dream of what I could change,
What I can be.
What I could do now.
The PCOS battle, how I could win.
But I slip into despair,
Grasping the small shade of hope,
Change is tomorrows challenge.

I dream of the future,
The loving husband
The gorgeous children,
The enjoyable job,
The spirit filled life.
I dream of my daughter,
Who won’t have PCOS!
And I dream of the conversation,
When she asks me why
I am regimented in her diet
And when,
I may happen to write my book,
My life’s reflection,
I can, and will, smile.

But dreams are today’s nightmares
And I slip into the sheer despair
But this is my life, and since when is life fair?

i feel better about it nw and almost am tempted to get rid of the last three lines but poetry is about how you feel there and then so here it is...

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