Goddess Hectate Help

Well let me start of by saying I'm 22 years old, since I was 17 I started to loose my hair for no apparent reason.. I went to so many doctors and was constantly mis-diagnosed. I also have had insomnia which gave me growth hormone defficancy, skin issues, weight issues, insulin trouble and EVERY aspect of my life has been ruined due to this problem.. No one around me understands what's going on.. I think some of my relatives even think I did drugs or drank to much that's why I look so horrible.. I've lost 80% of my hair on top of my head.. I don't even look like the same person

Since I was younger I was always insecure this situation has COMPLETELY destroyed my self esteem and my life, at such a young age my adrenals have been ruined that I can't take any stress-- not even finishing college or going to law school... My parents give me crap for it everyday and compare me to other healthy kids and ask what's wrong... then there's the looks I get from people.... People treat you so horribly just because of the way you look... OVER SOMETHING AT THIS POINT I can't even control.......



So much has happened.. I won't go much into detail, but I've lost all hope and faith.. I was always unsure whether or not God existed but often times I prayed to him to help me bc my situation is HORRIBLE...no response... I even asked him to turn back time and give me my life back... since I have such an extreme case of PCOS and so many other prblms that prevention would have been the only way to fix them.... no response no sympathy from God from all the tears I cry everyday...


Where is God admist tragedy and suffering? when I've reached rock bottom, where is God? why won't or she or whatever help me? not even a response? I have always been compassionate towards others in my life time, sure I've made some mistakes, but to punish me this much? to ruin my whole entire life like this? to let me fall apart?

WHERE IS GOD? or does he just not exist..... why is he punishing me.....

Pray that God answers my prayers