The first thing I want to say is that having PCOS is not your fault. I know it is hard to feel judged by people around you, because it is such a misunderstood syndrome. There is nothing you could have done to bring it on or keep it away.
Prevention is NOT the "only" cure, or even a "cure" where PCOS in concerned. You cannot cure pcos, but you can manage the symptoms and live a life that is relatively free of pcos.
When is the last time you saw an Endocrinoligst? What labs have you had done? It's important to find a doctor who is willing to listen to your concerns. Are you currently taking anything for your symptoms? What about your depression? If your testosterone is too high, it could be causing you to feel depressed. How exactly has every aspect of your life been destroyed? I think it helps to write it down and get feedback.
Regardless of what your thoughts of God are, there is no denying the vast amount of help out there for pcos and its related symptoms. You are still quite young and have a lot of time to mend things, despite the way you feel. There are worse things - far worse things - to have.
My brief understanding of God is that He put us here to worship/serve Him. That He tests us with things like our health, finances, children, etc., to better ourselves. We aren't here for a free ride, we are going to be judged on how we lived and how we handled ourselves not only under trial & tribulation, but success & happiness...
If it were me, I would just put things aside with God -- tell Him that you are struggling right now and don't understand why this is happening to you -- but that you are going to focus on what is available to help yourself and you'll 'get back to him'. Just give the stress/worry to Himto hold for a while and get proactive about healing yourself.
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