Goddess Hecate,
DiamondintheRough. Danna, and a_beautiful_disaster have done such a beautiful job of supporting you, I'm really finding it difficult to add much more to what they've already said in their posts. All I can tell you is that I've been through a lot of tough times in my life, too. I've been through so much trauma within the past 20+ years that my therapist often tells me that it's a miracle that I'm still alive and "as normal, thriving, and successful" as I am today.
Well, the only thing I can really attribute as a reason for my recovery is God. I suffered from many medical and personal troubles for a lot of years. There were many, many times during the past years when I cried myself to sleep and asked Him for death so that I can be released from my pain. If it wasn't for God's Love for me, as insignificant as I am, I still wouldn't be here today. Because of God's loving assistance and guidance in my life, I'm determined to make the second half of my life a WHOLE LOT better than the first half!
I agree with Danna that you MUST be proactive with your recovery. My late father used to always tell me that "God helps those who help themselves", and that statement couldn't be more true for those of us who suffer from PCOS. Yes, God has surely helped me, but it was also my stubborn persistence and high work ethic that has helped me in my recovery, too. I still have a long way to go before I get to where I want to be health-wise, but I do know that God is there for me, you, and the rest of us who turn to Him for help.
Many (((hugs))) to you, Goddess Hecate, and please do NOT give up on yourself....you are a precious child of God and he does LOVE and CARES for YOU, whether or not you realize it right now. |