NJGirl

Hi everyone. I am a Christian w/ PCOS. Just took my first Clomid last night and I felt like everything I did to pick up the prescription went wrong (pharm didn't have it, had to drive to another city to get it at 10 p.m.). While doing so, I thought, maybe I'm doing something God doesn't want me to do. My husband says God doesn't play with us like that and I believe him but maybe there's a good reason for my PCOS and infertility and He is protecting me. Maybe I'm not supposed to give Him a hand here. Maybe I should accept this as His will for us? I have so many thoughts about this... I want a family so badly and I know He knows my heart and I'm seeking His will here. If He doesn't want me to have one, fine....I don't question Him but I wonder if I should be doing this. Has anyone else gone through this? I'm so worried that I'm doing the wrong thing.