 feelings of disgust
I was diagnosed with PCOS about 3 weeks ago. When the Doctors told me I felt like a ton a bricks fell on me. I'm happy to know that I finally am getting answers to what is going on with my body, but frustrated and overwhelmed. I never had acne until I had my daughter who is now 8 years old, my cycles never regular, last period lasted 5 weeks, and I sometimes go without a period for months. I get very discouraged when I'm around people. I feel like they are focused on the acne and not me.
I hate looking in the mirror because of the constant reminder of my condition. I feel disgusted with the way I look. I don't feel sexy.
My husband says that I am beautiful and that it really isn't that bad, but it is hard for me to see it the way he does. Sometimes I just want to crawl into a corner and cry, because I feel like noone truelly understands what I'm going through. When people ask me what's wrong I don't want to open up, because I feel as if I'm wasting my words. |