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heshesmom · 02-28-2009, 10:12 AM

Has anyone else suffered from this? My mood goes from happy to angry from one minute to the next. I throw things, yell, and overreact to just about everything. My husband is at a breaking point with me, and I can't blame him. I feel like I want to be another person some days. I wish that I was normal. I don't understand any of this. Why am I like this? I hate myself and feel so ashamed. Does anyone else feel like this or am I the only one? I really hope that I am not alone in this or I am really going to be worried, My insecurities, depression, and anger are ruining my marriage and I don't know where to turn. I don't want to say suicidal but I can't help but think it sometimes, It would be so much easier than living like this day to day. And to think I want to have a baby, what was I thinking? What child deserves a mother like me? One who can't control herself. I feel so alone with no one to talk to or who can truly understand how I feel. You can try to explain it until you are blue in the face and somehow its just not enough. It doesn't seem to do justice to how little I think of myself at this moment.

Ashley