I have been seeing someone and they are the ones who prescribed the celexa. You know the only short term fix I have is to sit in the shower and just cry. And that helps for the time I am in there. I am supposed to be starting clomid as soon as my af gets here. I really am contemplating not doing that. I wonder if all of this is part of the withdrawl from the celexa? It has to get better right? There is such a back story with me and my estranged family that has a lot to do with this. My husband thinks it would be good if I contacted my dad next week. I haven't spoken to anyone in about a year. So this is a big thing for me. If your family doesn't make you feel welcome, puts you down for who you are and what you look like, and doesn't agree with anything about you or your life, is it a good thing to have a relationship with any of them? Does anyone out there know how this feels? There has to be someone. I was tired of feeling like I wasn't good enough, skinny enough, made enough money, or did anything right with my life. I felt like a constant disappointment to them, but is that a better situation than I am feeling now? Its hard to make that choice, either way I feel like a disappointment to someone somehow. I feel like my husband deserves better than someone like me. He deserves someone to be happy with who they are, someone who doesn't feel like me. He shouldn't have to console me all the time. What kind of wife needs that? Sorry about the long story but sometimes it helps to write it out.
Ashley
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