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Windsong · 03-04-2009, 11:15 PM

Hi there,

I wanted to let you know that I too, had lost all hope and faith in this battle with PCOS, as well as all of the side effects and other health issues. Adding insult to injury was the loss of our miracle child to stillbirth at 39 weeks...I simply could not fathom why God would allow such a miracle into my life after all of these years, and then take it away only a week before he was to be born.

In the year following, my entire body and soul ached and what I did not realize is that along with grief, I was also harbouring much anger towards God. While grief is a necessary healing process for any sort of loss, the anger on top of that was just too much to bear. So while I cannot say I truly know how you feel in your shoes, I do know my own pain and can feel for your experiences.

To give you some personal background, I do not subscribe to any one religion, but as a seeker of spiritual insights I suppose my beliefs more closely resemble that of a Gnostic Christian and I believe that there is spiritual knowledge to be gained from each and every religion around the globe. :o)

I would like to recommend a book that my dearest friend in the world came upon and sent to me. It has made ALL the difference, and not only has it completely (and miraculously!) lifted my anger, but it has allowed me to see God in a new light and answered many questions that I have wondered about for YEARS. The book is called "The Shack" by William P. Young and I cannot recommend it highly enough...I am an avid reader, but I can honestly state that this book is the best I have ever read, bar none. It will indeed answer the question of 'Why me God', and I hope that it will bring you the same measure of peace that it has for me.

I want to believe that seeing your post and being moved to respond (and sign up here!) was no accident or coincidence.

{{Hugs}}

P.S. Do know that this book WILL bring tears, but beyond that it also brings healing.