MSTee, yes ma'am you are definitely dealing with lots of issues right now. Don't let it get you too far down. I know things will get better.
Victoryismine, I have lived withmy bfs on numerous occassions and it is very difficult to make it work without that definite paper and ring. I do feel like it helps you grow accustom to who you are dealing with. Maybe you can love someone from afar but not under the same roof. Living together helps you prove that. As far as semen analysis my bf was dead set against masterbating but he knew it was a great cause and he knew how bad I wanted it. I did get myself throughly tested before we did anything to him especially since it was something he didn't want to do. It was me so he didn't have to "perform" in a bottle. basically, If he knows how much this means to you he will do it.
Take care everyone.
