I know what you mean. I have for the last two years prayed for a baby without ceasing. It almost seemed like I was talking to myself. I wondered why would God do this to me....wanting to be a mother so bad and being infertile. But heres the thing. God gives us trials. Sometimes they are due to sin, or due to other ppls sin. I really dont think your predicament is due to sin. Other times there tests. How would God know who really loves him through thick and thin if we were never tested. If things were always good, of course we would love everything. Im sure you are also thinking, if this is a trial, why have I been dealing with it this long....Well, several reasons. God's time isnt like our time. Years are like moments. He sees the begining, middle and end of our lives all at once. He also may be waiting for you to do something through this situation. Really think about it. Think....could God be using me in this situation to lead others to him....could this be to strenghthen my faith. Im not sure if any of this made any sense, but I would love to talk to you anytime. |