AnotherDreamer - You have an amazing attitude. You sound like the pillar of strength and sound of reason rolled into one! I am sure you too have your down time but your words have really helped me. Thank you. Not many people knew I was pregnant. I only told my parents, best friend and only 2 of my siblings. The family member who is pregnant, and I really don't care for at all, is not aware of my pregnancy and miscarriage because I didn't want to hear her make up disingenuious crap to say to me. It makes it hard because, every time I go shopping with my mom, it's all about finding stuff for the baby. Then I get to hear all about the baby this, the baby that. I am not one to let my family and friends see me breakdown, but holy crap, all this baby talk just sucks! I know she's not doing it to be mean and that she is really excited but it doesn't make it any easier for me to be around it. I know that I should be happy for them but it is hard. The baby shower is coming up and I really don't know how I am going to be able to deal with that one. I know my mom will be a nightmare to deal with and I will have no choice but to go. I worry that the prego one will complain about how hard pregnancy is and I will go off on her. I fear what I might say. She got pregnant in 3 months and *****ed about it taking so long and here I sit 6 YEARS later. Some people are just clueless!
Hugs to you!
Thank you for being so nice to me!
I am sending baby dust and baby sticky dust your way. I will pray for you to have a successful and healthy pregnancy resulting in a healthy baby! (((Hugs!)))
tcrock02 - I am so sorry for your losses. I am so torn up about one and here you have endured three! God Bless you! (((Hugs!))) I cannot help but feel scared about getting pregnant again because I really don't want to go through the emotional rollercoaster that ensues if another miscarriage is to occur. I don't think anyone can prepare you for just how emotionally draining and devastating it is to have a miscarriage. I don't know if it is truly the loss of the pregnancy or the fear of never having a successful pregnancy that hurts even more. But as I re-read that sentence in my head, I truly think that it is the fear of never having a successful pregnancy that haunts me the most. The physical part of my miscarriage was not that bad, but the emotional part is beyond horrible. There is nothing that anyone could have said to convey to me just how bad I would feel.
When you were pregnant, did your doctor have you take a blood test to check your progesterone level? I'm really wondering if I miscarried due to low progesterone. When my doctor sent me for my cd 21 labs (not sure if it was cd 21....they took 6 or 7 tubes of blood), my progesterone was too low and I was told that I had not ovulated. I was really confused because I chart and my chart showed a very clear temp shift. So, I am wondering if I miscarried due to low progesterone. Is it possible that low progesterone could be your problem? Just a thought. Your lab results should give the doctor some idea. I really hope your results are encouraging! Another thing to ponder, I don't know what your history is but I had a transvaginal ultrasound and an HSG. The ultrasound showed nothing while the HSG showed that I had a small fibroid in my uterus. My doctor scheduled me for surgery, a hysteroscopy with resection, and she was surprised to find that I had multiple polyps and a septum in my uterus. No fibroid! The septum was completely blocking my uterus so there was no way I could ever get pregnant with it still in place. (Depending on where septums are located in the uterus, some people can get pregnant and then subsequently miscarry due to the septum.) I just could not believe that neither the ultrasound nor the HSG showed the septum. The surgery is a simple procedure that some doctors even do in their office. You may want to ask your doctor if he/she would be willing to do an exploratory hysteroscopy on you to see if maybe there is something else causing you to miscarry. It really helped me and I truly hope that you are able to find something to help you! (((Hugs!)))
Please let me know how your appointment goes on the 30th! The 30th is my birthday, so it is a lucky day! (Not being arrogant.....just giving a reason why the date is my lucky day and has potential to be a lucky day for you too! I will share it! LOL!)
Best of luck! Sending baby dust and sticky dust your way to! I have added you to my prayer list and I will pray that you have a successful/healthy pregnancy and a healthy baby really soon! (((Hugs!)))
Please don't forget to let me know how it goes on the 30th....of course you can post again sooner to! LOL!